My precious baby,
Everyday I try my hardest to be everything that you want, everything that you need. But just like everyone else…
I get tired. I work my hardest to make sure that everything goes smoothly and that you are happy and healthy.
Sometimes I get so busy doing so many things everyday that I forget to take a break. Sometimes in this life, things don’t always work out the way that we plan and because I am human, I have bad days too.
And for that I am sorry.
I’m sorry that on days like these, I may tell you that baking cookies has to wait for another day, even though you had your heart set on it that minute.
I’m sorry that I might tell you to go ahead and run ahead of me, that I’ll catch up; because I just don’t have the energy to chase you around the park.
I’m sorry that on these days, my normal warm, enthusiastic smile may be dulled down a little bit when you ask me to read that book for the fifth time.
I’m sorry that I may tell you to go ahead and do that puzzle again on your own. That mommy will just watch.
I’m sorry that I may not seem as funny, as energetic, or as happy as I usually do.
I’m sorry that I cannot be perfect for you all of the time, without ever getting tired or frustrated or upset. Because Lord knows, I wish I could.
But I just want you to know..
That even on these days, I’m just as amazed at how fast you can run.
And even on these days, I love how open and excited you are to try new things.
Even on these days, I am filled with pride each time you repeat a new word; gosh, you’re so smart.
Even on these days, watching you do that puzzle all by yourself makes me so happy, when did you get so big?
Even on mommy’s bad days, I sit back and admire how beautiful you are inside and out. I still notice how perfect you are and how I wish that you would stay this little forever.
I still feel so grateful to have the opportunity to love someone so intelligent, so unique, so amazing.
So forgive me please, just try and understand that tomorrow is a new day, and I will be better. I just need you to bare with me.
Because even on bad days, I am still the luckiest, proudest, happiest mommy in the world…
Because even on these long, tiresome, exhausting days, I still have you.